R&B and rap artist Chris Brown recently revealed he “heard God speak for the first time” as controversy continues to swirl around him, and admitted he’s tired of the devil “ruining” his life.

In a lengthy Instagram post shared last week, the 26-year-old Grammy-award winning singer stated that most people would have committed suicide by now if they were forced to endure what he has to deal with every day.

“When u tired of the [expletive] devil ruining your life and u hear God speak for the first time. No one knows what I deal with on a day to day. The average man wouldn’t hesitate to blow his [expletive] brains out …,” wrote Brown in the post which was accompanied with a photo of himself standing in front of a red background.

“Most won’t understand the genius and beauty in change and learning and the people who have devilish intentions will win in the short term. My soul will always be pure of heart. What’s on the surface always looks like one big party but inside there is a little boy looking for help and guidance,” he continued.

Brown also claimed he is desperately looking for “help and guidance” so he can focus on his music career and raising his 13-month old daughter, Royalty. (Read more from “Famous Rapper Cries out to God in Social Media Post, Says He Is Sick of the Devil ‘Ruining’ His Life” HERE)

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